Goodbye Prosper Hello Thrive!

So I finally made the decision that I have been turmoil-ed about for 3 weeks now. I am leaving my current job at Prosper. Thursday will be my last day! I am going to another coaching company in Orem. This is a bittersweet choice. I love my job and the students I teach. I will be doing the same at the new place but it's still a change. I will be starting the new job on Monday!

STUPID

Do you ever feel like you are CONSTANTLY surrounded by STUPID?!!!! Everyday while I am at work I practically have tape my mouth shut to deal with one person. HOLY CRAP said person drives me NUTS!!!! I can't wait until said person leaves for the day. My day defiantly gets better the moment they leave!!! UGH...................... YOU CAN'T FIX STUPID!

Ode to Kim

This week I lost a very dear friend. This was a very hard thing to deal with because not only did I lose a very sweet friend but her son lost his mother. I wanted to dedicate a full post to the memories of her and the impact she made on me.

I first met Kim at cancer support group. She had an inoperable Brain tumor. She is a strong woman. At the time I met her Gavin was about 2 and 1/2. She was very sick from the get go but still did what she had to do to take care of her son. She often told me how strong I was and that I was so encouraging to her, when in fact it was she who was so strong and encouraging to me.

She was originally from California and came out to Utah a few years ago. She died at the age of 30. Pretty sad stuff. She worked as a secretary for a local law office I believe. I am very upset at myself for not making our friendship a priority. We both knew how sick we both are and yet life still got in the way. We would make a plan then without fail either she was feeling bad or I was. Somehow though, we did plenty of chatting online and talking on the phone! For that I am truly grateful. When she passed away I felt as though my heart was ripped out of my chest. I have been trying harder to be a better friend to others and for her I'm too late.

The more I am thinking about her the sadder I am getting so I will end here for now. Please remember to count your blessings everyday and live life to the fullest.

Goodbyes are not forever.
Goodbyes are not the end.
They simply mean I'll miss you
Until we meet again!
~Author Unknown

I love you Kim and will think of you often!

Gavin and The Outsiders

Well here I am back at work. I was able to take yesterday off because a- I feel like crapola b- I am grieving a close friends death, and c- my entire body feels like I got run over by a steam roller! I still have a painful cough and chills but it could be worse. As of now little Gavin is going to be staying with his great-aunt. She is a very sweet lady and he will be in good hands!
I still don't know what to do about my recent diagnosis of fibromyalgia. It makes sense as to why I hurt so much. My Dr. gave me a new med that is supposed to help with nerve pain. So far it has helped but I can only take it at night cause it makes me sleepy. I'm supposed to take it 3 times a day. Hopefully I will start to get used to it and the sleepiness will reduce.

I was able to go to this interesting pizzeria with my sweet friend Laura and her daughter Faith. This place was super swanky!!! We had a good laugh because the people who worked there looked like they were right out of the Outsiders movie Pony boy anyone? They had their pants rolled up, sleeves rolled up, and hair slicked all the way back!!! Who does that??!! Too Funny. I know Laura is reading this and laughing at the memory!

“We must embrace pain and burn it as fuel for our journey.”
Have a happy and safe Thursday!

Kimber Ann Leak

My dear friend has gone on to be with the angels. She passed away at 3:01pm. Thank you everyone for all the prayers. My heart aches for her but even more so for her 4yr old son Gavin. I am happy she is not suffering anymore and that it's only a matter of time until we meet again. And the disease wins again. When will this garbage stop? It makes me so angry!!!! It is a painful, sickening, scary, killing disease! I HATE CANCER!!!!

Weekend Visit

My parents came down Friday and stayed til Sunday and HOLY COW we had a perfect visit (mostly). It was so nice to see them and spend quality time with them. I have been trying to rebuild our relationship and it is finally getting there! We ate at some nice places and did my favorite thing..... SHOPPING!!!!!!!!! We were having so much fun that I forgot to take pictures! So I will post a couple of older ones! I hope everyone had a great weekend, and has a great week! Mine will be stressful (see other post from today)

Kimmy Kim

My sweet dear friend Kim who has a brain tumor passed out today at work and has been on life support since. There is no brain activity and the outlook is bleak. She has a 4 year old little angel named Gavin. This is very saddening to me because he has very few people in his life who love him. He is precious and sweet and I HATE that this is happening to them both! I am so happy that they have come into my life and blessed me with an amazing friendship. This situation has again reminded me of how short life is and how precious it is. I just talked to her this morning and she said she felt a little off but was just tired. Life is so fragile and we all need to make the most of it.

As I am trying to figure out what to with Gavin (her legal stuff says he comes to me until a permanent situation can be decided between myself, her attorney, and child services) I am realizing how blessed I am to have amazing people in my life that are doing everything they can to help me help him. Marcie Jessee has offered to watch him as needed so I can still work- she relieved a huge stress from me-thank you so much!