Daily Dose of Derin

Today has been a rough day for me so far. I am not happy. I have trouble when friends tell me they are pregnant. On one hand I am super happy for them, and on the other I am angry because I'm not able to get pregnant. Maybe one day the good lord will bless me with the joy of motherhood. In the interim, I absolutely enjoy playing with and tending to my friends children. My friend Whit has an adorable little man that is about 10 months old. I was blessed to be able to spend the day at the hospital on the day he was born. I was able to help Whit out and change diapers as needed and hold him and just marvel in the miracle of life. I have seen too much death in my life that it was so amazing to be there when a brand new life was emerging and starting.
Another friend of mine Laura has 2 beautiful little sweeties. The one I am closest to is 3 going on 16! Nothing melts my heart faster than when she tells me, Derin we are friends huh! She has a smile that lights up my darkness and a laugh that is so contagious! I am truly blessed by this sweet and powerful little princess. A quick little funny about her: for Christmas I gave her a cute little princess dinnerware set. On New Years Eve we were over eating an amazing meal. I asked her if someone cool gave her that cute cup. She looks at me with her innocent eyes and says "no Just you Derin". We all had such a good laugh and still do.
Her other beauty is a real angel! She was blessed to not have to deal with the garbage in this world and was able to return home to our Heavenly Father at 21 months old. I never had the opportunity to meet her but as a result of her, I was able to meet her mama and amazing family. My life has become so much better because of her! Even though I have never met her, I feel like I already know her! Her love and spirit lives on through everyone she came in contact with! I have seen pictures and videos of her and I am always smiling, as is she. Her smile and laugh are the sweetest sound. I can't wait until we meet!
I am lucky enough to be surround by those who care and uplift me. I have this saying I have used for years "Friends are angels in disguise". How true that is! I encourage all to count your blessings today! I know that when I am in my darkest funk, if I can just start listing my blessings, I realize how wonderful things really are. Happy Wednesday and God bless.....